The diary

A silence between us



There was a silence between us

Those minutes were perfect and endless

Today they sound dull and crucial

Where did we go wrong?

Your arrogance made ​​my undying hatred.

There was a silence between us

That haunts me and troubles me

And this loneliness corrupts us

Whose fault will it be?


Poetry in “Stupid diary of Rafaela”. Gabriella Lima


Analyzing the stupid diary of Rafaela



Written in 2010 by scholar Niza Diniz Pereira, this literary analysis says a little about the book Stupid diary of Rafaela by Gabriella Lima, which is going to be available in English version into e-book format any time soon.



Thoughts of a pseudo-bipolar by Gabriella Lima


This is a book in which the author focuses on two themes: the first is the Increasing compliance among adolescent to the virtual romantic relationships and the other is the detailed approach of symptoms and suffering caused by the bipolar disorder. The protagonist has a real boyfriend, but embarks on a fantasy, having another via the Internet, through which falls madly in love. Abandoned by virtual love she verges on madness, seeking answers to her anxieties; finally getting sick she got the diagnosis: bipolar disorder, a mental illness characterized by constant change of mood. In her diary, the author makes real catharsis, which describes in great detail the experiences arising from disorder: when in the manic phase, she has the sense of power, euphoria, has several boyfriends, and ideas flow quickly (without never realize them). At this stage, living fantasies, like Rafaela protagonist, who in delight, records in her diary that there is a 3 year old daughter named Clara, fruit of the relationship with her boyfriend. This child never existed except in your sick mind. Identifying this stage in the book: “Sometimes I think I am too much, cannot be less, being just a little bores me.”

On the other hand, records in her diary, the depressive phase, when your world falls down, watching for insomnia, pessimism, sadness, irritability, inertia, thoughts of suicide. This is a difficult stage when sinks into alcohol and drugs.

Identifying this stage in the book: “Today I live in a black hole inside me, sometimes have a name, but only sometimes.”

To summarize the review that makes itself:

“I am my own torment.”

From the moment she becomes aware of her illness and decides to face it, begins to work on her own behalf, marrying her first boyfriend. The protagonist in certain passage gives the impression that the goal of this work is to help people who suffer from bipolar disorder and accept that can have a normal life since beware, because the disease has no cure. Demonstrates that there are people with greater suffering that outperform. Final thought-provoking book: Was Rafaela even bipolar, or it was just a fantasy of a teenager?

Reading offers the reader the opportunity to review their virtual relationships with more criteria at the same time alert to the acceptance of random disturbances that arise in your life.

A brain called Rafaela




Sunday, july 12, 2004

I woke up early thinking about what to write in a new blog, this new page I’ve just created. I thought in pleasing many, in destroying a few; all in vain.

Before that, I had a hard time to sleep, I got dizzy and even fell to the bed.

I made a bitter tea, those you drink to remove all kind of evils, even the ones in the soul. I light up a cigarette that I haven’t smoke in a long time due to the recent principle of pneumonia. “This is not right and neither is healthy”, I thought. I looked those ashes being swallowed in the wind at the same time I was belching its black smoke …  And I could see faces through those polluted mists.

I started doodling. I scribbled in everything. I drew in the walls of my yard, the floor near the washing machine, my empty mattress, and as I no longer had what to stain, I started drawing on my body and when I realized, it was early morning, I got dressed and went to my morning walk.

There I found the leaves dancing and that delicious smell of nature. I started running. I ran so, so hard… Actually I was running from me.


Text published in “O diário idiota de Rafaela” – Gabriella Lima, 2011.

Looking for a photo cover

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Hey all!
I’m going to republish my book “O diário idiota de Rafaela” in english version and I’m looking for people interested in having your photo on a cover of a book with all credits on it.
This book was officially published in 2011 by Clube de Autores and as long as I have many foreign friends interested in acquiring a copy, I was thinking of it available in e-book version for free. What do you think? Would you be interested of being part of this new project? Let me know. Send me your e-mail so we can talk a little bit about it:

Gabriella Lima

A note from a young reader

Gradually I have created a right public, however small, but very sincere and selected. I’m proud of that, and much more to know that the story of Rafaela has messed with people.

A friend from the south of Brazil, also read it.  Once we were chatting and I asked (the usual question) what would be the age range for readers of the Journal, and she said: No doubt for young.

This week, an ex student of mine, who is now 14 years, acquired a copy and wrote something I could not help but share with you because it was something to suit the more mature minds, also called attention of a teenager. Although he is not a common boy, he’s ahead of its time, but still, read this.
“When the author told me that the book had been published and then told me the title” Stupid diary of Rafaela “, I immediately thought: another melancholic” romance-fad “book. Of course I knew that for more fad and melancholy that was the book, this would have been written by Gabriella Lima, then it could not be that bad.
After a while, I decided to buy it.
When the book arrived, I was going to the dentist and I started reading it right there in the car.
Damn time I started reading it! I instantly hooked on the book. I was waiting for my appointment and reading. I went to the dentist’s office and I was reading, but I had to stop when the query began, and even then, I was counting the seconds for that query finish right away.
The book is very cool, with an extremely refined term, with expressions that make “Rafa” pulls away from paper and go into your life.
I have not finished reading the book, but the pages that I read, I just cannot stop. And I want to take too long to finish reading it, because I do not want its end.
I’m in love with the book, with all sincerity in the world. Congratulations to the author,  I hope you continue with this urge to write, and that your imagination perpetuated forever.
If you are in doubt whether to buy it or not, just press the buy button I guarantee you will not regret it. “(Rafael Leite – Gov.Valadares – MG)
Folks, there’s nothing more delicious for an independent author read it than this. My heartfelt thanks to all readers, even those who have not come forward, with whatever constructive criticism or not. This is our success!

My book in a contest


Stupid diary of Rafaela (Gabriella Lima’s book)

In an attempt to save herself, Rafaela Drummond begins to narrate in her diary, her emotional outbursts, while lying totally in love with the cutest guy, romantic, quiet and … virtual. She reaches the threshold of reason and madness because of this destructive romance, and begins to search for herself, or for what once was, the answers to her anxieties.

Friends, I am participating in a contest with this book and I wish you guys vote for it.

The link is below

Thanks so much for helping me once more!